The holidays mean different things to different people. They can be a time of joy with family and friends. They can also be a time of sadness for people when they remember folks who are no longer with them.
And then there can be that space in the middle where you can just be wistful for what you want but isn't there. You have not had it yet...so it's not really a loss...but you know what you do want and it's still not there.
I end up in the middle.
I have been doing a lot of reflection this year. Where I am and where I want to be. It's funny when you work like a crazy monkey for years you don't spend a lot of time in reflection. You are simply too tired. And there is always one more thing to do, one more call to take. That work stuff fills up so much time that any reflection is surface only.
I am in a different spot now and my reflection has been deeper and with an awareness I have not had for a long time. I am clear that I am responsible for where I am and what I have or don't have in my life. But I am reminded of what I once read...she accepted full responsibility for her life but couldn't help but wonder what the hell she had been thinking! :)
A new year is right around the corner and with a clearer head and focused intention...I will look forward to my reflection next year at this time. I am committed to being out of the middle...and ending up just where I want to be.
My holiday wish for you is the same.
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