Truth be told last night I wasn't really thinking. I had an incredibly long work day...about 14 hours on my little feet so when I got home I decided to eat something then watch a DVD with Pumpkin the wonder dog to relax.
That's where my plan went amiss...
The first DVD I put in was the first season of Dexter. I didn't know much about it other than it gets great reviews on Show-time. Quickly it appears that Dexter is some kind of serial killer and he just caught another one in the first few minutes of the show! Yikes! What the heck!! I quickly ejected it...not the relaxing thing I needed and I put in one more DVD. This one was called the Bodyguard, a new beginning.
As I laid back down that one started to play with people being beaten to a pulp. I rolled my eyes and thought...what was I thinking?!
If you want...and I say I want...a life with less drama and more joy and peace...then that has to flow through my life. It has to flow through my choices, through my language, through what I read, through what I see and through what I expose myself to.
Trust me.. I am not a pansy. I have had death threats or the potential of them in 3 of the last 4 jobs I have had. I can hold my own or go down swinging. But that is not how I choose to live anymore. I am headed into different space.
Will that mean I will ignore violence and life's horrible side? No...but will I invite it in my home so I could view it with a dish of ice cream and a little wiener dog by myself?...Ah that would be no again.
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