Do you? LOL If you have been a reader for awhile you know I am on a journey. I got knocked flat by post traumatic stress for over two years. I am not only down for the count...the lights were out and I was left behind in the dirt.
But I have gotten back up... I am moving forward but anyone who says this is easy has truly never hit the ground hard. The thing is you have to find your way back up. People can cheer you on but in the end it is up to you. You have to find it in yourself to want to get back up. Then once you do... you need to put some attention on not falling again the same way.
I am not saying to be tentative in everything you do. But take time to look at where you have been and see what you can learn to safe guard yourself from falling again in the same way.
Patterns are hard to break. They are the known. I slip back into them before I even know it. That's why I say be present in your own life. Pay attention. And I do...then it slips away.
When I did the exercise the other day of climbing a tree and looking down on my life...I was taken aback at the sandstorm raging. Such a whirlwind that I couldn't see. Now that the sand has cleared and I see what I have...I need to pay attention. I need to figure out where the sand storm keeps coming from. I need to change that wind pattern. I need to once and for all establish new habits that take me to the state of well being I say I want.
Maybe I am the only one who feels they are "walking in the wilderness" with this stuff. I doubt it...I just write about it. :)
I will get it...and it will be well worth the journey. Lucky I have packed enough snacks for this journey 'cause apparently there is no short cut!
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