Falling down and trying to get up can be overwhelming...anyone who says it isn't. Well I hate to say someone is delusional without meeting them...but I would be tempted. It can be so hard, so very, very hard. And hard can feel overwhelming.
If you are alone or feel alone - dealing with the feeling of overwhelm can even be more difficult. You need to know that feeling overwhelmed is a very normal feeling when facing any loss or trauma...starting over...looking at things differently.
I think most of us don't talk about it because it makes us seem weak or out of control. Well I have felt overwhelmed more than once during the past two years and for the first time I can remember...I didn't care what anyone thought because there was nothing I could do but feel what I felt. And some days were so dark I never thought I would see light again. But I have and the light is so much brighter than I remembered. ( I saw that ..."the light is so much brighter than I remembered" in a print ad and fell in love with it because for me it is so true.)
It sums up perfectly how you can feel coming out of the dark...as your eyes adjust you can see the light is brighter and not that it makes the road you just traveled any easier but it can help you feel so very grateful for coming back out. Standing back up. It's a moment none of us should let slip by without at least a pause for gratitude.
The facts are that some people do not recover. They do not stand back up. So if you did get back up or are trying to..each step is cause for a celebration and gratitude.
One thing that really helped me get through the most darkest days was a quote I once saw and made into a poster I hung up in my house. The quote is by Charles Schultz...It's never the end of the world. It's already tomorrow in Australia.
I made that my mantra. I made a promise to myself no matter how bad things got or felt. I would always wait to do something until tomorrow. It was a promise that I kept. No matter what - things do look different tomorrow. You owe it to yourself to find out. You owe tomorrow to yourself.
And speaking of tomorrow I will have some more ideas on dealing with the sense of it all being too much. Tomorrow...see you then.