I have fallen off the joy train again. I do not know how that happened! Who am I kidding?...of course I know. And it amazing to me how fast that can happen if you are not present and paying attention to your own life.
My overall goal for this year...my overall intention was/is to have more joy in my life. Coming out of almost 3 years of darkness..let the joy begin! And I have made great strides. I am truly joyful a lot and so very grateful that I found my way back...but oh how quickly it can disappear. How quickly I can fall off the joy train.
The good news is that I recognize it faster...and I can stop myself. Stopping is important or whatever you are experiencing can gain momentum and take you even further away from where you say you want to be.
That was happening to me this week yet again. I was very tired, overwhelmed by some things I am thinking about and working through. Instead of me creating a space so I could think about and deal with them one at a time along with getting some rest..."they" came pushing and shoving their way into my "head space" and what happened? I got a mini migraine, my little shingle scar started to hurt (my own internall stress o-meter) and I certainly was left at the "station" as the joy in my life went on down the track without me.
Enough I say. ENOUGH. I know what I need to do and I need to be diligent about it. You can be thinking..."Am I suppose to be diligent all the time, watching what I say and do...is that how I am suppose to live my life? Mm-mm well my answer would be yes...at least for awhile.
And here is why....when you have lived your life in a certain way for a long time and decide (or have it decided for you) that it is time to live differently...that doesn't happen overnight. There is a learning curve and you have to pay attention until the new way you want to be takes a hold ... you have to pay attention or those old habits and ways of being will come back to bit you in the butt!
Tomorrow..how to keep that butt biting at bay :)
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